When Arivel Writes

As I stare into the dark clouds and contemplate about my past, I see no difference: floating darkness, the direction unknown. But, there's a rainbow always after the rain; sunrise after dawn; clear skies after a thunderstorm. I know all about them, and I experienced all of 'em. But you know what? The fact is, it's a never ending cycle. Darkness into light, light into darkness. Only two cycles. You want another fact? It is only in heaven where light is never ending. I've been craving light for so long, but I also know that I have to endure this, for the people that I love and the people that love me back. So here I am, staring at the dark skies, wishing everything is as light as the clouds so for once the heavy feeling can finally be lifted. I want to run free, without shackles around my ankles. I want to fly free, without something weighing me down. I want to live in light. I want to experience the feeling of living freely again. I'm getting tired of carryin

I've been on writing and reading hiatus for more than five years due to the state of my mental health. As I try to build myself again from nothing, I will also try my best to write something and post it on my blog at least once a month. I'm trying to regain all the love I lost for the past five years. I know it will never be easy, but I think I am finally ready to give it a try once again. Please pray for me, and bear with me. I can not promise to make sense in all the content that I will be posting from here on out. It maybe most of the time mundane just to take my mind off of something that might be bothering me or it might be an interesting read. Who knows? My mind surprises me most of the time. ☺ xoxo, Nikki